Stupid crush

Oh god, why am i crushing on someone again?? I said that "I will never have a crush on someone again until adult." that was 7th grade but the second semester.. idk how to describe this but he suddenly came to my mind and I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM WHAT?! I tried to ignore it but it wont get it off (i mean he is kinda handsome, in my opinion), is it because that day in indomaret before study tour? Maybe i can handle that it's just a little crush, right? Well, uhm.. I have a big a crush on him now... It's kinda different from i have crushes on someone before, I felt like.. i'm in love with him. Well that's just because a crush of course, but no seriously I REALLY do have a crush on him while my other crushes was just meh/okay (my reaction was normal before whenever I see them). Okay well, I did have a big crush on that last boy, he was handsome and funny but also kind of.. Red flags. Oh and he was popular too so that's why some girls has a crush on him, including me, but honestly... My current crush is the most handsome man than Z (last crush). Idk what happend to me but yeah my current crush is handsome yeah (why tf am I saying that again). I kinda want avoid to him but HE CANNOT STOP APPEARING OUT OF NOWHERE, and I cannot stop dreaming about him help, I have dream about him 7th times now wtf. I want to be friends with him but that's just my imagination, damn. And I also want to hug him for some reason, yeah ik that's weird and probably weird for him too, I know some of boys doesn't like hugs so yeah. 

I think that's all for now, and _ I love you for now.